Why

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Say it with Love

Song Synopsis

This song explores the dismay we feel when we believe the limiting thoughts that run through our minds. Caught in negative patterns, we can lose connection — with others, and with ourselves. Why parallels the unraveling of a relationship with someone else and the painful disconnect from our own sense of worth. It ends with a quiet ache: What would we give, do, and say... to come home — to them, or to ourselves?

Lyrics

V1

Why do I feel

So alone at night

When everything’s

Going my way

Why do I feel like

Hurting and hiding

Why do I believe

Everything that you say

V2

Why am I failing and fussing

And fighting and frightening

The good times away

Why do I feel so fearful

To be found out

Why do I believe

Everything that you say

Breakdown

I’ve got to face the demons

The reasons the semen

It’s seething and seeping

Right out of me why!

My head is escaping

It’s raping and shaking

The toll that it’s taking

I’m naked and shy!

Oh why is the pressure

Just pressing and pressing

Depressing me stressing me

Why why!

I’m caught in my thoughts

And they stand in the way

Why do I believe

Everything that you say?

V3

Why am I failing

And flailing and fretting

And fighting

Myself everyday

I’m breaking down

Taken down

Pounding my heart

Beating faster and faster away

I believe in the words

Spinning round in my head

Is this my ultimate fate

They ring so clear

The words that I hear

I believe everything

That they say

Bridge

I’m all alone

In this desolate home

Is this any way to live

What I would give

V4

I’m turning a new leaf

I’m sowing what I reap

I’m burning and burning away

The doubt and the shame

Self inflicted pain

I’m down on my knees every day

I’m leaving the old ways

And starting a new phase

No limit to the price I will pay

And what I would give

4x

Solo

Bridge

What I would give

What I would do

What I would say

Dialog

Ring…/Heart Beat

Hi, it’s me

I thought I’d call you

Yeah I know it’s late but

I just wanted to hear your voice

… yeah I know

I’ve missed you too

It’s… it’s been too long

Hey I’ve been, I’ve been thinking about us

And I wanted to tell you

I don’t want to do this

Without you

I don’t want another moment

To go by without you

I love us

Oh baby

I was hoping I could see you tonight

Yeah…. I’d like that too

(Laugh cry)

End

And what I would give

(I saw what you gave)

And what I would do

(I saw what you did)

And what I would say

To come home to you

(To come home to me)

Backstory of the Song

Backstory - Why

If you’ve ever had that relentless soundtrack in your head—the one that whispers (or sometimes screams) you’re worthless, broken, or have nothing to offer—then you’ve been in the same dark alley where this song was born. That voice can feel like the devil’s own mixtape.

Even the strongest mind can get sucker-punched by it. Under stress, we forget who we are. We go from lion-hearted to lost cub, from knowing our truth to believing the lie that everything we’ve ever done has no value. That’s the venom of inner sabotage.

One night, caught in that storm, I grabbed the nearest thing—dry-erase marker in hand—and turned the bathroom mirror into a billboard for every ugly thought in my head. It filled the glass. For days I walked in, saw those words, and saw my reflection trapped behind them. Slowly, I began to mistake the graffiti for the truth of who I was.

But here’s the thing: in yoga, we call those lies Avidyā—wrong knowledge. Beneath the fog, your true nature waits, untouched. You can’t stop a rose from smelling like a rose.

After staring at that mirror long enough, something shifted. God spoke. The resolution to this song appeared like sunlight through clouds: the words I would say, the things I would give, to come home. Not just home to someone I love, but home to myself.

I framed the song as the breakup of two people finding their way back together. But in the deeper current, it’s about the soul’s reunion with the Source. In yoga philosophy, the three Mālas—Āṇava, Karma, and Māyī—show how we forget our unity. First, the shrinking of the heart (Āṇava), then the binding of our actions (Karma), and finally the illusion of separateness (Māyī). The further we drift, the louder the suffering. Yet the Divine is always on the other end, waving us back in.

So when the chorus repeats—I saw what you did, I saw what you gave, I heard what you said—it’s more than a reconciliation between two lovers. It’s the soul answering that call to return. It’s the engine of the Emotional Driver itself: finding the road back to the heart, back to the truth, back home.

Quotes from the Song

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"I'm turning a new leaf
I'm sowing what I reap"

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Explore practices designed to deepen your connection with this song

The Why Practice

Why Do We Forget Our True Nature

We’ve all had those rare moments — a direct hit of our true nature.
Something in us opens, revealing the most divine essence that is us: peace, love, joy, awareness, bliss.

And yet, that kind of clarity can feel too big. We may feel unworthy of it, unsure how to hold it. Doubt creeps in. We push it away. We even push ourselves away.

The truth is, we are always in relationship with ourselves. The bridge between who we think we are and who we really are is the Divine. When we lose that bridge, grief and frustration can rise. The mind starts asking: “Why do I feel this way? Why am I impatient? Why, why, why?”

The Why Practice is a way to come home to YOU — the deepest part of you.
It’s about letting go of self-limiting beliefs and replacing them with a truer knowing: Your birthright is peace, love, and joy.

And that’s what we’re about to do…

Step 1 — Sense Awakening

Sit comfortably. Let your spine rise tall but easy. Slow your breath. We begin by waking up the senses — opening the door to inner awareness.

  • Earth – Smell: Notice any scent in the air. Recall a smell that delighted you — the aroma of fresh rain, a favorite meal, the scent of someone you love. Be there again for a moment.
  • Water – Taste: Sense the taste in your mouth. Remember a flavor that lit you up. Where were you? Who were you with?
  • Fire – Sight: Soften your eyes. Recall something beautiful that warmed your heart the instant you saw it.
  • Air – Touch: Feel the contact of body, clothes, and air. Remember a touch that comforted or thrilled you.
  • Space – Sound: Listen. Recall a sound that opened you — the voice of someone dear, music that moved you, wind in trees.

Step 2 — Breath Through the Seven Locations (Chakra Focus)

We now move our breath through seven locations in the body — each one a powerful energy center, or chakra.

For each center:

  • Take at least one full, free breath — no ratios, no control — just feeling the fullness of where you are in that moment.
  • Stay for up to three breaths if you wish to strengthen your connection at that chakra.
  • Inhale through the nose; exhale slow and steady, without forcing.
  1. Root Chakra – Mūlādhāra (Colon / Root)
    Hands on the ground. Inhale and draw from the earth. Exhale, sending that energy upward and out through the nose.
  2. Sacral Chakra – Svādhiṣṭhāna (Pelvis / Sacral)
    Hands in your lap. Inhale into the pelvic bowl. Exhale, letting the breath rise through the body and out.
  3. Solar Plexus Chakra – Maṇipūra (Low Belly / Navel)
    Hands on lower abdomen. Inhale to your hands, letting the belly expand. Exhale upward and out.
  4. Heart Chakra – Anāhata (Heart Center)
    Hands over heart. Inhale breath and spirit into your chest. Exhale, letting energy flow upward.
  5. Throat Chakra – Viśuddha (Throat Center)
    Fingers above collarbones. Inhale into the upper chest and throat. Exhale slowly, feeling energy rise toward the crown.
  6. Third Eye Chakra – Ājñā (Brow / Mind)
    Fingers at brow. Inhale deeply, filling the mind-space. Exhale slowly, creating openness and receptivity.
  7. Crown Chakra – Sahasrāra (Crown of Head)
    Hands at the sides of head, fingertips brushing crown. Inhale to expand your whole body. Exhale as fingers lift and point skyward — open to the Divine.

Reflection / Integration Prompt: How can I deepen my true understanding of myself each day?
Carry this mantra: “My true nature is love, peace, and joy.” Repeat it often. Let it replace old stories with truth.

It’s easy to forget who we are. But each time we remember, it’s like finding something precious we thought we’d lost — and our connection to Grace grows deeper.
You can always come home to yourself.